As I sit down to write this on Sunday afternoon, I am having a hard time coming up with a title for the post. That seems like a silly, small thing to stress over, but it really got me thinking. Thinking about how I don’t always want to write about simply surface-level things, like what I did this weekend. While I love reading other blogger’s posts about their weekend and enjoy writing them myself, I feel like I have more to say today than that. I couldn’t come up with a title, because I don’t really have anything prominent to say about my weekend activities today. I’ll give you the highlights later in this post, but right now I want to talk about something else.
Last week in my Behind the Book series I mentioned that I thought I did a terrible job of the goal I had set for myself the week prior, which was to commit to more in-person experiences. When I sat back and actually thought about it, I probably did better that week than I had in a very long time. So why is it that sometimes even when we do a great job at something, we can’t admit it to ourselves? That we always think we could do just a little better. That we get hung up on all the ways we could have been more proactive or on top of things. That it is typically so hard for us to admit that we may have done a good job.
I am the type of person that doesn’t necessarily care so much about impressing other people, but I want to hold a high standard for myself. I want to be proud of the choices I make and why I make them and not just float through life without really experiencing it. It has been hard for me lately to admit that I just might be doing the best I can right now. I believe it is important to have standards for yourself, but it gets scary when they become obsessive. When you feel the need to do everything perfectly all the time, you are always striving for something and are never able to just enjoy the present. And that is exactly what I feel like is missing in my life right now – experiencing and feeling the present moment.
So for the next week, my goal is to simply be. To be and to remember. I want to take more pictures and post more to Instagram, not for the likes or comments, but for a storybook for me to look back on and remember this time in my life. I want to write more honest, deep blog posts to reference back to when I am older to see how I have grown. I still want to have more in-person experiences and communication, but not beat myself up when I’m just craving a night in alone. Sometimes I feel like a broken record saying these kind of things, but I think it’s a really important reminder for us all (myself included) that we are enough. And that if we spend our whole lives always trying to be better, we will never be around to see what is going on right in front of our faces.
And keeping in line with what I promised earlier, here were the best parts of our weekend:
- On Friday night, we had my parents and sister Olivia over for dinner. I was able to try out some new recipes and a few old favorites – I love having an excuse to cook a big meal for people once in a while. We also had a really good dessert and then played cards together for a while. It’s still crazy to me to entertain my parents in my home, since they fed me for so many years of my life.
- Chris and I went on a little lunch date on Saturday afternoon to the cute bakery where we got 150 gourmet muffins for our wedding guests’ parting gifts. My mom introduced me to the place in the summer, and she knew of it because her and my dad lived right near it when they were first married and would ride bikes up there a lot! Their baked goods are out of this world, but their regular food is very good, too. So Chris and I spent some time there eating sandwiches and meal planning for the week and then got a bunch of muffins and hot chocolate to go.
- We also spent a few hours at the car dealership on Saturday looking through some options for me to get a new car! And hopefully that will all be finalized today….
- After seeing this blanket on Jade’s Instagram, I not so discretely hinted to Chris that I really wanted one. And lucky for me, she provided a discount code that was only applicable for a few days, so he ordered one and had it waiting for me as a surprise when I got home! It is amazing. It is so heavy and huge and just like, holds you still. I am obsessed with it, as you can very clearly see below.
- It was absolutely gorgeous outside on Sunday, so Chris and I went for a long walk in the afternoon down this cute little trail by our house and then stopped at the library on our way back to pick up a book I had on hold. It felt amazing to get out of the house for a while and not be miserable while doing it – I feel like I have been cooped up since we got back from our honeymoon in October.
- And obviously, the Shameless season file on Sunday night, although I typically hate season finales because they always leave me on edge and make me super anxious for the next season to start.
Have a great start to your week. 🙂
What was your favorite part about your weekend? Had any random thoughts lately that made you stop and think differently?